Sometimes you find forgiveness in the strangest places.

Yesterday I was faced with forgiveness. Not only was I forgiven, but I forgave someone I myself - well I think for the most part anyway. I over reacted with her, and said nasty things because I hurt, and now almost ten months later she apologizes to me for the hurt that she caused me. Although she only caused part of that hurt, I still couldn't help but me mad at her back in February. Then yesterday we came to some sort of neutral place I suppose, probably only because now she knows how I felt. Mind you, not nearly to the same extent, a seven month relationship cannot compare to a three and a half year relationship in this case, she'll probably never get exactly how much this situation could be worse for her, like it was for me. I'll admit, from the things I've heard there are times where I feel/felt bad for her, and then there are times where I'm kind of glad she finally gets why I was so upset way back, because for a while I thought she'd never be sorry for what happened. She wants to be friends, honestly we'll see. I am glad though that apologies were exchanged, because the mistakes I made out of my hurt and anger definitely come to mind when regret comes to mind.
The boy involved of course well, because of how close we were and are, it's hard for us not to try and be friends again. Before anything else we were best friends, but even though we've both changed, he's definitely changed the most and I can see that by times it won't always be the easiest thing.

Unrelated to forgiveness is something about a friend of mine. We have a strange friendship, or well I like to think so because I don't know what else to call it really. We'll talk, but we rarely see each other, and yet were still close. I've had feelings for him since I met him, which is unfortunate for me because even though he's a really great guy, I'll never get that kind of chance with him. I know this because sadly enough it's been brought up a long time ago, and I know he'll never share the same feelings for me. I am surprised at how strong those feelings are, but I guess it's one of those cliche stories that really has no good ending, and I'll just put them all aside like they don't exist (as anything more than friend to friend anyway!).

A lot of things have gone on the past week, a lot of it I can't really talk about. Mostly though, there hasn't been anything good. I do hope that it's not contagious for anyone else.