There has been a smile on my face for days.

Not that I have any reason not to have a smile on my face any other day, but this just happens to be a reason for me to have an even bigger smile. On Tuesday I ran into one of my friends before I had class, and I met one of his friends. That's right, I met a boy. I know this sounds quick, but within an hour he had got my number from my friend and we've been talking every now and then since. Alright we've been talking a lot, you got me. He's such a cutie, I mean really. He seems like a genuinely nice guy, and considering the type of person my friend is, I trust that he wouldn't be friends with anything but.
Honestly I've been a bit giddy, and again I love smiling this much. I'm not expecting anything to happen, I mean if it does it does. If that's the case, I'm not going to rush anything either. Lessons were learned and I think I should be single for a while just to get settled and figure things out. As much as I don't want to say this, I am 'that girl' who is always in a relationship. I know it's only been two days but you never know! I just thought I would share this, and also remind people and myself that I do in fact have my head on straight and I don't believe things should be rushed. To be honest, I think I would be just as happy if we ended up being friends - he's just that nice!

Can you tell I think Andy Warhol was brilliant?

and at the end of the day, you either focus on what's tearing you appart or what's holding you together.

Honestly I had completely forgotten about blogger, which isn't very surprising considering what the past few months have been like for me. I can't say I'm the same person I was in January, a lot of me has changed. Just like the Kirstie Bear thing, that will have to go. I have no idea if I'll be able to blog very much, but as I'm trying to stay away from Facebook I may need another outlet other than Twitter.

I think the two biggest things that have happened since January is that I started College three weeks ago for Pre-Nursing, and that I've been hurt by boys twice in the past six months. My boyfriend of 3.5 years, gone. Another boy, who turned out to be nothing but a mistake disguised as a wannabe redneck, gone as well after about five months. Although they were both for the better, there is nothing like getting hurt, heartbroken, what ever you want to call it. Sometimes you wonder why your not good enough, what's wrong with you. The same thing that happened with one happened 6 months later with the other. I'm left alone, while they have new girlfriends. I know I can do better, just that feeling that you get, sometimes it hurts so much that you honestly don't want to feel like that again.
I've decided against getting into a relationship for a while. One, because I've only ever been in one and haven't been able to really be single, and two, because meeting boys is fairly impossible, especially when your college program has practically no eligibly bachelors. Actually, I think there's maybe 10 guys in total? It's quite sad. Problem is I hate the feeling of being alone.

Right now I'm mostly focused on school and work. I'm at the school a lot, and then when I'm not there I'm either doing work or at work. I don't have much of a social life thanks to that. The good part about all of this is that I'm not thinking about everything that's bugging me most of the time. I can't really, if I do then I'm not focused on school and I cannot let my grades slip if I want to get into the full nursing program next fall. Some days I feel like a zombie, waking up, going to school, working and sleeping. I would love my social life back actually.

To clarify, it hasn't been just boys going on the past few months. I've graduated High School, grown up a bit, started my future, and realized I have to loose 25 pounds like asap :P I'm only saying this so I don't sound like some pathetic boy freak haha, which again I am not.

We'll see if I blog again, I can't make any promises.